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I guess I forgot to include that I was thinking of purchasing the one on ebay.... Still considering it. Thanks for the info, nothing

Does anyone have a copy of the "Inside a Broken Dream..." fanzine/anthology? It has an 11-page Millennium story called "I Can Only Bring Your Sorrow " but I haven't been able to find anything out about the story. Author? Plot? Is it worth purchasing? Thanks, nothing

welcome! wouldn't east from DC be, say, the Atlantic? and since it was during/after school, and thus the sun was more likely to be setting, and he was driving into an illuminated area, it's more likely west, eh? - nothing, who'd often thought he was driving south, though this belief may have been influenced by VS4

i definitely ruined my family's viewing of the movie with my exclamation of 'Chris Owens?!' in his first scene. and i agree, good flick. i had heard of the case of course, but didn't know much about it before. also, it reminded me of this german movie called 'the lives of others', which is good as well. - nothing, who rarely actually sees movies

now i don't want to open up the whole 'what is psychic' can of worms, and i strongly agree that Frank was not intended at least to be psychic. it is my understanding/belief that what we see/hear during one of his 'flashes', for lack of a better word, is, as others have said, largely based in what he experiences, but is rendered for the viewer to experience. there are certain limitations to an audiovisual medium, and those and the fact that the show (at least in my mind) is not told from Frank's pov mean that a certain amount of interpretation goes on. when i first started watching the show, i imagined there was an accompanying mental fuzziness of everything else - i don't know where this came from. but when i read the novelization of the pilot, it described a heat at the base of his neck, and that struck me as the oddest thing. i know i've read somewhere about what exactly was or wasn't in the script but for the life of me i can't remember it. also, several people have pointed out that 'seeing angels' sounds a lot more psychic/supernatural than profiling, especially when performed by Jordan, or Linda, neither of whom have had the life experiences/training Frank had. no one, unless i've read this wrong, mentions Lara's first angel, which she saw when she was also very young. i have several points to make about this, and they may get convoluted. - at some point, and for the life of me i can't recall when exactly, Frank says he manipulated his gift. in my understanding, this means he's gone from being a passive viewer/interpreter (can't find a better word) of these signals of evil that others see/sense to actively integrating these detection abilities into profiling. -in MOTC (where the line above may come from, and thus it's not from CC's mind anymore) he says he's seeing differently, more intensely, since joining TMG. i kind of took that to mean (mainly) that more cases + more research = better honed skills - i think the angel as harbinger of doom is similarly an interpretation, but closer to what is seen. winged psychopomps are common throughout the world and time. its use in Christian mythology makes it more a messenger of the living than the dead. so that all the characters who see anything see angels (Frank sees them in MOTC and it's implied he may have originally, though he's done some manipulating by Curse) is not surprising given they were all born into/exposed to Christian environments. i think an angel's an expected image which manifests when they feel something, but i'm personally at a loss to say what exactly is being felt. i believe there are realms of the mind we don't understand and that they do not fall in the realm of supernatural. - nothing, who unfortunately does not believe in a world like that in MM

don’t want to step on any toes or anything, but wow. reading some of our reactions, especially those so eloquently laid out by ModernDayMoriarty, have opened my eyes and made me all the more appreciative of the diversity of fans’ reactions. there are some points i’d argue if I weren’t so tired, but i am so here’s this: i would have to say the innocents makes me a little mad, because of how much of the previous season is left completely untouched. i understand that this is a result of having to sweep up after m&w, but once those eps (T4H/TTIN) were written and were filmed and were canon, it bugs me that instead of wrapping up *some* of the dangling threads they just started a whole new tapestry. anamnesis annoys me too because it feels so unnecessary. while I find the interaction between Lara and Peter interesting, sending Catherine on a case seems a bit perfunctory. not only does it not help her understand the Group any better, it inserted this odd little bit about the family that is never even approached with a 10-foot-pole again. and i agree with the had-the-potential; coulda-been-better assessment given to HOSS, …Thirteen, and submit to the list Omerta (and not only because 85% of the action occurred offscreen). then the content of some episodes made me annoyed, if not mad. The Well-Worn Lock, Broken World, Beware of the Dog, A Room With No View. but wasn’t that part of the point of MM, to provoke, to make you uncomfortable, and make you think? but that’s the great thing about MM; as others have stated, while we may have an ep or two we utterly dread, our collection of favourites and those we dislike are rarely to never the same. and i for one, love it as a (more or less) coherent whole. - nothing who wishes to neither offend nor bash, and hasn’t seen a single MM ep in a while being oh so separated from her disks, and whose only cinema and media studies class was in, and thus focused solely on, another country. i also realize i’m rather picky and happen to want the one thing we don’t get in any particular episode…

yes, i seem to remember often reading that 'grotesque' was one of the main inspirations for MM/early evidence of it. i'm not being very articulate, but i do remember it was singled out because it dealt so clearly with human minds, capacity for evil, the potential for corruption/obsession, and relationship between a mentor and a protege. i remember CC citing it specifically as one of the darker eps, and also as a taste of MM. the other one i remember is 'home', which wasn't necessarily so much a MM precursor but CC being given a bit of a looser reign to tell an xf story... and a fairly odd one. - nothing, who REALLY needs to get to bed

:Wreath-1: boy, you sure know how to fling the compliments. or something. just kidding; i have been known at times to subsist solely on your MM caps and water crackers. - nothing, who appears less and less healthy each time she contemplates herself

whoo boy, i could talk about hr for a while. i'd reccomend to almost anyone interested in MM to at least rent it. there is some very powerful tug of it on me that i cannot explain. while i do not rate the show itself as one of my top three (and not only because it was cancelled so quickly), there is something about the set-up and the mythology that i cannot let go of. i occasionally write stories for basically every show i watch, though some come much easier than others. there were 9 episodes of HR and i have written or outlined at least 15 HR stories. i know proportions isn't the only way to explan how it affects me, but i think it is a decent example. in maybe a two day span i watched all 9 episodes on my tapes, and i have a 6 hour tape of one ep and a whole bunch of behind the scenes stuff. i recieved the dvd series for christmas whenever it first came out but i must shamefully admit that i have NOT watched a single dvd ep snice that time, out of fear that it would inspire waaaaaaaaaay too much. there are many things i don't like about hr. i must admit i've never really paid too much attention to who's writing, directing, etc, but i agree with the above comments on the subject. i've often thought about it, and approach it this way in my stories, that if slightly refocused i think it could've been better. i think the division between 'mythology' eps and standalones was too great; i think santiago shouldn't have been a main character and florence should have; and if i completely had my way waters, inga, and the pilot would've been retooled a bit. as much as i love terry o'quinn the decision to make him a regular cheapens the show for me becasue, honestly, how many times can a newby to the realm get so close to santiago and not be able to kill him? i woud've liked a little less reliance on the real world, but still show information from it. i think the sophie story might have gotten old; how many times can she question the government ony to recieve lies and blank stares, or how many times can she visit the 'widow' of someone else lost in the realm. i think a connection between the two worlds, as in reunion, was an interesting idea, but i think sophie's story, of being alone and pregnant, might have deviated from the true essense of hr. she's tom's motivation, no doubt, and letters are ok, but i think she would've been appearing less and less (Though not gone) as time went by. i like the inclusion of waters, but again think he was overused. hr is not that small of a world. i would've like to know what else existed outside santiago's realm, because there was a lot of empty space on santiago's map of the (former) us. i know we would've gotten it in time, but i would like to know what CC et al had planned for the time between when the bomb went off and when hobbes entered the realm, other than a general succession of soldier-leaders and a descent into general lawlessness. i would really have liked to know more about florence, though i admit her mystery is one of the reasons she's sort of my favorite. that is why i'm dissappointed she wasn't a led; mainly because: where did she go? also, how did she and pinocchio know each other? in short, if it had been a more 'us vs the world/realm/santiago' story, with more information about the day-to-day struggles of living in the realm outside the fence, i'd ilke to think it may have had a chance. we had glimpses of these struggles in about every ep, but i still came away feeling life in hr was written a bit easier than it should've been. - nothing, who's really got to stop rambling about things she loves that no one cares about, and get back to writing about african political systems, because she's getting graded on it.

not sure if this is the place to put this, but he're goes: i heard some time ago on another list about a book written by Chris Carter's wife. i can't remember her name, only that i think it began with a 'd', maybe Dory or Dotti or something, and her last name wansn't Carter; or at least, this was the name under which the book was published. i remember reading that it was fiction but sort of based on real life, and dealt at least a little with the behind the scenes aspect of creating a tv show, the scandal, etc (this was manly for the x files if i recall correctly). i kept meaning to find it but by the time i got around to looking for the book i'd lost the email which contained the information. i've tried asking that group, but it almost died with the x-files, so no luck there. if anyone has any idea of what i'm talking about or reccomendations, or if this is the wrong place for such an inquiry, please let me know and i am sorrry. i hope someone can help - orfan always looking for things to read, especially those concerning the formative years of her life

WOW ..::calms down:::.. strange, i've been off TIWWA forever, and thinking a lot about the yellow house, and suddnely the two things intersect. I am insanely jealous of your opportunities in the yellow house! it's definitely on my list of places to experience. strage as it sounds i've been trying to see/walk through it in my head as a means getting to sleep (it's not really working, but it is leaving me with many questions and items to investigate). - nothing, who has as an insane goal to replicate that house as much as possible

i agree in that i don't see any MM closure in txf ep MM. granted, we get Frank and Jordan back together in the end, but where the episode even starts raised too many questions as to what had gone on in the intervening time for me to sit back and say 'ok, they're here now.' and we got the two of them (f and j, i'm not talking m and s here) together in the end, as it should be, but i feel that the episode took too much on. they could have made a decent christmas/new year's x-files episode about zombies, they could've made a (i hope) decent x-files episode that (sort of) resolved the MM storyline, but i feel the integration of the two did a great disservice to both of them. my main argument against it is where on earth does the idea of zombies come from? sure, there might be vague references in the bible to people other than jesus being ressurected and them being the 4 horsemen of the apocalypse (i've never read the bible, and i forget too much of what i learned about christian mythology from my studies of MM, so if this is wrong i believe it even furthers my point). but, iirc, and i'm not exactly current in my full s2 and s3 watchings, tMG divide between owls and roosters, or at least the ideologies, was never settled. as a fan i am thus uncomfortable with an x-files episode which rather arbitrarily decides which it is, and furthermore ventures in to supernatural realms the likes of which were not yet seen in MM in order to do so. i could go on but it's after three and i told myself i'd be in bed by midnight. in short, the whole episode feels off; (real) mythology is mixed and (televisoin) mythology is generally ignored. i'd like to think this is true too, but that late in the season i think, and i thought i'd read, they probably knew... ! if only it were only that. (nice and zombies seem kind of oxymoronic. a weird PMP-zombie idea just popped into my head, which defintiely indicates it's bed time) ... kind of creepy... do you let her do temp work? - nothing, who admittedly, was a hardcore xf shipper at the time, and relished the kiss in its own right

https://www.chrisnu.com/millennium/s1/index...pgmFilters=#pic i know i've seen other versions of it (that is, stills from the same scene), but here is the one from chrisnu's site (22 of the lametnation pics if link doesn't work)

i nearly burst out laughing in this public computer room, which would have been bad enought, except for some reason i also almost spit all over the screen/keyboard. ps. i love you and your capping ability - nothing (grad school apps are obviously affecting her)

so i've never had a blog before. (be warned - i use that word, 'so' a lot in my writing, especially in an introductory capacity. get used to it.) i'm not sure why i'm starting one now, only something about this time and place and the last 15 minutes (while i was trying to figure out how to make this one) made me want one. and i'm sick of random wants floating around only loosely tethered to my head and reality. i wanted a place, albeit a small, online one, where i could "live" without lies. don't worry, and don't get me wrong, i'm not a pathological liar or anything. i don't consider lying a sin, and not even 'wrong'. i've often found that, far from hurting people, lies can make things easier. but enough about that. why create a space without lies if only to preach on my little soap box about them? so i promise here and now to myself and whichever stranger acquaintances of mine on this board read this (as no one i know in real life is anywhere near joining this board), no lies. so why a MM blog, open, as i said, only to essentially strangers? MM is one of the main forces in my life, second in importance only to probably oxygen. it's not the literal text on screen but the impression it has on me. i've read similar statements from other fans. there are certain episodes i can recite by heart and there are some i've only seen twice. i recently rewatched maybe five episodes and realized there was so much of this beautiful thing i've forgotten. i have dozens of MM stories hovering somewhere between my head and a printed page. as i've probably made abundantly clear, i'm not religious, so that aspect of the show is, for me, part of the translation. but it doesn't dilute the fascination. whatever it is about this program i shudder to think of who i would be without it. and it's strange to think that basically no one i know knows it. well, i've got to wrap this up. i'm not really sure of the decorum concerning one's own blog, but i figure i've bored anyone still reading (besides... no, including myself) to tears. i am keeping my name to myself. i may sound inane and i may sound insightful, but it is all i. - nothing